Even though I think it feels odd when not in a totally controlled (IVF) cycle, I suppose I am in the TWW again. According to my chart, confirmed by my acupuncturist, DH and I just may have done it on the right nights this time ’round. My cycle seems back to normal and so with some acupuncture, self-uterine massage and Chinese herbs (that taste like liquified mushrooms), I’m hoping that something will click.
But I’m still a realist, so discussions have begun about when we should try a FET. A lot of this is driven by finances. We are nearing our lifetime (insurance) limit for ART, but FET is significantly cheaper than a fresh cycle. No additional explorations into adoption, but that door is still very much open – even if this is the cycle.
DH is on a plane to Korea for 10 days and I keep thinking how nice it would be to surprise him with good news when he gets back. I’ve played out the ‘how I would tell him’ scenario so many times — well 27 to be exact (since we tossed the BCPs) — and I know that I am just being silly. More than likely the ‘announcement’ will include a call from our RE or adoption attorney.
Just came from a get together of a group I belonged to — where there was MUCH discussion about kids. And, found out a few more folks at work are knocked up. Seems to surround me, but I know that I am hyper-sensitive.
And finally, DH’s cousin posted this as her Facebook status:
“Put this as your status if you or somebody you know has suffered BABY LOSS or INFERTILITY. ♥♥♥ The majority won’t put it on, because unlike cancer, baby loss/infertility is a taboo. ♥♥♥ Break the silence. ♥♥♥ In Memory of all the Angel babies gone too soon but never forgotten, and the babies who were not possible…”
I know she has suffered loss, but wish she was someone I could confide in.
Okay, it’s late and work has been BUSY – so I’ll sign off for now. Looking forward to a true catch up on all you bloggers this weekend. Watch out for comments on old posts!
(Also, why is my WordPress spell checker suggesting new words on this post!?! I get paid to write and provide counsel on communications. If I chose a word, I wanted to use that word! Clearly I need some sleep or a new target for my frustration…)
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